Tears of a Follower

   Why? I ask myself and God this every day. Why is it when things were going so great, so amazing, and life seemed so perfect, when all of a sudden everything faded. My entire life I spent it avoiding friendship, because all the previous ones in the past had faded, and sometimes I live expecting the same as well. Though I see myself moving forward, and making friends, for some reason I can never forget, or leave behind some. No need for names, God and I know who they are. I feel like I’m spiritually fighting for their salvation.

Salvation is an individual thing, but sometimes it feels like we must fight for those who aren’t able to fight for themselves at a certain time. Perhaps they don’t even notice they have fallen, and are completely tangled within the traps and tricks of the enemy. It’s sad to have been so close to someone spiritually and now you are so far away, it totally sucks! It seems like they go on living life, as if you weren’t nothing to them, or perhaps they remember but the enemy has placed a blindfold in front of them which does not allow them to actually see clearly.

I don’t know about how the rest of the world lives their life, but I live life moving forward. Moving forward doesn’t always mean to forget about the past, it means to accept what life brought at you, and doing something with it. I still love all those who I shared some kind of friendship with, doesn’t matter the amount of time we knew each other, I treasure everyone.

I pray for them daily Lord, you are my witness. I honestly have started feeling tired of actually praying. At times I feel like there is no hope. But I rebuke that thought, because it doesn’t come from you Lord. Regardless of what my mind or the enemy says, I will not give up on those I love. I will continue praying till I run out of words to say, even if my I lose my voice, my spirit cries for their salvation lord. I feel my spirit shouting to the highest of hills, screaming for their salvation.

Now I am beginning to understand a bit more what you did on the cross for us Lord. While we hurt you, and mocked you, you still screamed to the heavens saying “forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing!” Jesus you never gave up on me, you died for me, and that is why I cannot and will not give up on those I love. I will go to the end to do your will, which is to spread the gospel. I shall not give up Lord, for you are my strength.

God I ask you to give me the strength to continue moving forward. Give me the strength to continue praying for those who are in the cemetery of the world. Give me the strength to pray for those who have lost their sight in Christ, and for those who have hurt me. God give me the strength to have mercy, grace, compassion, and forgiveness. I want to love like Christ loved. I want to be the brother, and friend you created me to be Lord. Guide me daily, and allow me to be an example to them Lord.

Help me Lord not to move forward, without their faces engraved in my heart, and mind. Give me the strength to fight for their salvation, and to bring them to the light of truth. So they may see for themselves and accept the fact that without you in their life they have nothing. They may gain the whole world, but without you they have nothing but the burning flames of hell to look forward to. But in you they have salvation, everlasting life, and love that never ends, or changes. God help me reflect you always. Decrease me Lord, so you may increase. Fill me with your wise, encouraging words that can lift up the dead. Fill me with your presence so where ever I go, your Holy Spirit is felt and manifested. Fill me with your love, so they may know and understand what true love is. Fill me with your forgiveness so I may be set free from any anger, sadness, or hatred. Fill me with grace, so I may love unconditionally, regardless of the harm others may do towards me. Help me move forward in love. I ask this in the name of Jesus, Amen.

-Mimic